Notes in the key of C

Well, it’s all over between us. I suppose I’d known it would come to this a long, long time ago and just kept procrastinating even after I was sure it was the only sound decision I could make.
Looking back, I remember clearly how it all began. I first saw her at “the Square”, an upscale shopping center in midtown. There was nothing flashy about her at all but after our initial meeting, I knew I was hooked. I started seeing her almost every day and it was like my day was incomplete without that one event in it. The deep feeling of warmth and satisfaction I took with me seemed to make everything else that happened afterwards so much easier to deal with. I was happy and falling deeper and deeper. It wasn’t long after that I began to see her around town. Was it meant to be? I couldn’t go on like this.
No, I was not the only guy. She was very popular and often I had to wait for my turn. And I knew that when I showed up I had to have money on me. A sickness, maybe…..but I felt powerless in her presence. She knew what I wanted, too and though I could have gone elsewhere, it would be nothing like that special magic, that feel-good feeling that only she could deliver. I could try to forget the many others who had tasted and were also hooked just like I was.
Then, one day not long ago, I’m not sure why exactly, but I started to think about the negative impact this crazy, obsessive, love affair was having and it all became clear to me. I had been getting so wound up after seeing her, that I couldn’t sleep for hours . It had to end and I had to be the one. She wouldn’t do it. I knew I’d still see her and still feel that urge to go back. That door would be open, welcome mat saying, “Come on in…..I’ve been waiting for you and I know what you want!”. But this is IT!! I’m NEVER GOING BACK!! No tears and no sad goodbyes. I’m just riding off into the sunset and never looking back. I know she won’t ever be alone and probably won’t even realize I’m gone for good.
Our paths are sure to cross again. But I’ll be strong and just keep on going………and drive right past……that STARBUCK’S sign.

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