I am capable of charting a topographic map of her body, including footnotes of the cause and circumstance of every scar and imperfection. I could write a biography filled with intimate stories before our souls fused. I know all of her common favorites, likes and dislikes and win each time we play my self-invented trivia game, “How Well Do You Know Me?” In spite of all of this, I wonder, how well do you really know someone?
We’re all guilty of lying, to say you’re not is a lie itself. Scores have lusted at one time or another for someone other than their ‘significant other’, to deny this is to deny you’re human. Many of us are guilty of declaring our undying love for someone, only to change our minds soon after, probably after the lust has subsided. But, how well do you know the person laying next to you at the end of the day? How well do you know the person you share a joint checking account with? How well do you know the person you call your husband, wife, boyfriend, other half, your boo?
I would like to be bold and reassuring, arrogant even, but the truth is you never know. My motto was/is/was
“falling in love is easy, staying there is hard”. The future is unknown, and rightfully so can you imagine the chaos if we knew the expiration date of our relationships as soon as it began? It makes me shudder, sincerity would turn to obligation. There’s a reason we don’t know these specific dates and times, as humans we may literally become animals.
I know the recipe to have a relationship fail, I probably prepared it better than anyone else the last time I cooked it up. Therefore, I’ve concocted, peppered with a little bit of self-help books; seasoned with advice from others; marinated in “heartache and regret”; a recipe of conducting a successful relationship. I am no expert, I know me…so it’s tailored towards me, you need to develop your own recipe. But what I’ve realized is much of my recipe is reliant upon a huge helping of ‘faith’ because no matter how much of the details you know about someone, free will always trumps absolute.
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