Lui Faleafine III. The world is without a good person, a solid man, and an insightful soul. Nine years ago today I lost my best friend and brother, Lui. A force of nature, a fact of life that was thrust upon me, changing my soul never to be the same again. I want to say that I became a better person as a result of my loss, but it has also caused me to be less idealistic. I don’t ask any questions anymore there will never be a sufficient answer. I cope by living life. I am comforted that I am not alone in my sorrow, and cannot begin to imagine the enormity of heartache that my parents feel.
My broken heart is all that I have, and my dreams. We continue to have good-hearted conversations in my dreams, and I sob when I am blessed with a new day. I don’t cry because I don’t want to be alive, I cry because it truly hurts. It’s a heavy, piercing, yet empty feeling.
I am grateful that I have memories of the details of our experience, but that also includes those of his last days. I learned the most from him during that time. Even though his physical reality dictated otherwise, he continued to plan his life as if he were promised decades instead of days. He was brave.
He had a message for the world, it’s simple yet at times the world makes it impossible to achieve, “Be good to each other.”
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January 23rd, 2008 at 3:42 pm
[…] MySpace and LinkedIn all have my info stored on their servers as well. Facebook has allowed me to connect with many of my brother’s classmates, MySpace has connected me with family and friends around the globe, and LinkedIn is one of those […]
January 30th, 2008 at 1:10 pm
[…] from Cornell University and was studying in Italy when she obliged my Mom’s request and returned to Hawai’i to sing at Lui’s services. Lea graced me with her compassion during my grief through encouraging emails from Italy. For her […]