Loss of Voice
It appears that I have lost my voice. But the cause doesn’t derive from an inflamed throat. Instead, this loss of voice stems from an overall numbness which affects the voice that I depend on to write with.
There is so much happening in the world, and I want to articulate my thoughts. But at the same time, it feels like the world is spinning just a little too fast and my thoughts can’t be gathered. Talk of war, concerns about the definition of National Security, economic problems continuing to escalate at home and abroad, axis of evil, color codes for each individual day, conflict on every front, death, destruction, illness, and far more finger-pointing than solutions.
How did we get to where we are? There are countless theories about the motives of each individual nation and their leadership. Every problem seems to have its own spin, while each solution involves a political battle. It’s becoming far more difficult to recognize truth, and the world community seems to be experiencing some kind of psychosis where reality has become distorted.
I watch the leaders of the world and the members of the United Nations as they pose, posture, and speak in soundbites. Their eyes show an urgency when they address the media, and yet they laugh and joke when they believe they are off camera. I can’t help but question their motives and wonder what exists within their hearts. I look upon the crowds that are gathering at the peace rallies, and I admire their commitment to the cause. But even the voices of peace sometimes appear to have become politicized into some form of Anti-Americanism, which only seems to cloud the greater cause.
There is a part of me that attempts to shrug it all off. I remind myself that each moment and every event will eventually pass, but this malaise continues to drag on for far too long and I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. There is a part of me that wants to do something of significance towards peace, towards positive change, but it’s become apparent that no matter how many rallies there are, number of petitions that are signed, or speeches made, the politicians have already decided in which direction they are going. My leaders have turned a deaf ear to me and it’s just as well; I’ve lost my voice.