“My, my, my it’s a beautiful Sunday .. ” Do you remember that song? I couldn’t help but to start singing it as I typed the title. And indeed it was a beautiful day! The sun was out, it was warmer than it had been the past few days yet still cool enough that we weren’t uncomfortable. After lunch, Kamalani and I decided to take advantage of the weather so we spent some time at the park. On our way home, we stopped to get something for dinner. When we got home, the answering machine was blinking with one message. I played the message and there it was, his voice. Her eyes lit up when she heard her papa asking for “the boss”. She replied, “here I am, Papa.” These little things kids do make them so enjoyable to watch. Sometimes I wish they never grow up.

Ryan has added a gallery for me today so I’ll be working on putting up a few pictures there to view instead of posting them here. I think I’ll just add a link to the gallery whenever I add to the albums. Thanks Ryan!

This was taken in August , 2003. Kamalani loves all things Disney but mostly the Princess Collections. I have a few sites bookmarked for her on the computer so if by chance, I leave the computer unattended, she’ll just take my seat, click on one of her sites and browse through Disney, PBSkids, NOGGIN or Sesame Street. It’s amazing that children this age feel so comfortable at a computer.

Our first grandchild was named after me. She’s also four years old, she’s very smart and speaks with a “Bahstahn” accent. Just too cute! I love when she says, “Grandma you’re killin me”

Our first grandson Pono. He’s almost three years old and lives back home in Hawaii. I probably sound like another doting grandmother, but ain’t he cute?

And this is our youngest grandson, we call him ‘Kaika Man. When I spoke to my cousin in MA, she said he has rolls and rolls of inner thighs. I told her to send me pictures and I’m still waiting for them!! He’s a cutie and he’s lucky to have a big sister who loves him dearly.

Okay so after 7 waking hours without a cigarette I finally crumbled and bought not just a single pack but a whole carton of cigarettes. Now that I know I can go that long without a cigarette, I’ll just try to limit the amount I smoke to one cigarette every 4-5 hours. Then slowly taper down until I no longer need it at all. At least, that’s what I’m hoping for.

It’s been 11 hours since my last cigarette, but then I was asleep for 5 of those hours so really I haven’t had a cigarette in the past 6 hours that I’ve been awake and sort of functioning. Right now, at this very minute I am CRAVING a cigarette in the worst way. Just one little drag will be enough. I might pick up a pack later. I know … I know … I shouldn’t but my stomach is beginning to turn …

Today is my frist day without taking a drag off a cigarette. Technically, that’s not true since I woke up in a panic at 5:00 this morning to rush to the bathroom and smoke the last of my cigarette so I’d have none around the house when I was REALLY awake for the day. All night in my sleep, I thought of how to handle the withdrawals. I dreamed of different scenarios and how I’d handle them. I thought to inform everyone that I might be a little moody for a few days, just until I break from the habit of wanting a cigarette while waiting for bacon to defrost in the microwave, or wanting a cigarette while I thought about the “to do” list that I still need “to do”.

I must say it felt very weird to think about alternatives to smoking when I have been so accustomed to the same routine for so many years. I’ve been smoking since I was 13 years old; that’s nearly 30 years of smoking. Thirty years of the same routine, so it’s logical that I feel out of sorts when I can’t have that cigarette to puff on. What to do, what to do? I thought I’d leave the computer on so I could type something to distract me from craving that nicotine fix. I’m also fixing to make some tea to keep my mouth busy.

I think that’s what I’ll do for now, then I’ll need to find alternatives to break me from the typing habit! .. hehe