Cherry Blossoms are blooming
Mar 31st, 2005 by Leimamo
The weather is getting much better. It has been warm enough outside to wear shorts although the breeze coming off the ocean is still kind of cold. The cherry blossom trees are beginning to bloom so I expect there’ll be a few people complaining of sinus allergies soon enough. It’s already started at a few offices I’ve visited in the past 2 weeks. All the workers assured me it was just allergies and not the flu.
I’ve been very busy these past few weeks, sorting through clothes, packing away winter stuff, packing away all of Kamalani’s baby clothes, tossing out most of my favorite stay-at-home puka clothes that I’ve had for at least 10 - 15 years. I get very attached to certain clothes because it usually reminds me of an event or person.
I’m not just bad about parting with things, I’m really bad about parting with things. One year, one of my cousins was having twins and he and his girlfriend were still very young and they didn’t have much money so one of my aunts asked if I would like to give them some of my kids’ baby clothes. Mind you, my 3 sons had already gone through these clothes and I knew I was going to have a daughter so it should’ve been easy for me to hand the boys clothes over. I stored the clothes in an old suitcase in the closet. I was happy to be asked to help another relative but when I unzipped that suitcase and saw all the clothes that I kept since the birth of my first son, my heart started aching. I lifted each and every item to my nose and inhaled the stale Ivory Detergent scent. My eyes were filled with tears and my aunt saw how attached I was to it. She felt really bad and told me it was okay if I couldn’t give them away. It was pretty silly now that I think about it but they brought back memories of my babies and it felt as if I was giving away a part of my kids.
One summer, when Megs was only two years old, my mom asked for them to visit her for the summer. I’m only human so I jumped at the opportunity of getting a break from the kids for a few weeks. The day after they left, my hubby came home from work and found me in their room sitting on the bed with their clothes to my nose, inhaling their scent and crying my butt off. He told me not to think of them or they’ll have a hard time sleeping at night. You see, we believe that babies can feel when their parents’ think of them too much. They get fussy or they might get sick and since they weren’t with me, I didn’t want them to be fussy or sick but it was hard not to miss them.
This time, as I went through Kamalani’s old clothes, I thought about how hard it was back then for me to let go. There are still a lot of clothes that I want to keep just because it reminds me of her but it’s not as hard to let go of most of them like it was those many years ago. The thought of paying out of pocket for exceeding the weight limit is incentive enough.
Happy Belated Easter!
Hi Mom,
Now I know where I got that from. Since Alexis was born, I kept some of the outfits you bought her. I kept them because they were from you and dad. It’s hard because we don’t see you guys as often as I wish. And thinking of how happy you may have been to have a new addition to our family as troubled as it is. Chris and I pulled the box out one day and I held her clothes to my nose. Damn, I love Ivory Snow. Chris’ mom bought Dreft and I told Chris I wasn’t going to use it cause my mom only washed my clothes in Ivory Snow. Chris told her mom that I wasn’t going to use it and I guess she was a little hurt, but Lex was my first and everything that had to do with her had to at least be heard by me. I look at her now, in kindergarten and I think damn……time flies. I put Dante in her clothes and he sort of looked like her. I even put his hair up. He could have passed as her if you didn’t live with us. But being Lex’s dad, I would have known. When they went to Florida, I stayed home and I missed them so much. I was so happy when I got home from work and they were in the room sleeping. The bed wasn’t empty. I slept with them like I did before they left. I think that’s what I missed the most. Anyways, I just wanna say one more thing, I love you mom and thank you for the love you taught me to give to my own children. Bulla
Hey Bulla!
Hope all of you had a great Easter! Thank you for the picture of Kaika man, he’s growing so fast. I hope they’ll be able to fly to WA this summer. We are anxious to spend some time with them. Love you!