I couldn’t get to sleep. I lied there but my arm was throbbing. I kept debating if I should take a pill. I have prescribe drugs but nah thats not necessary. I toss and turn. I’m not getting any sleep or don’t think I am, my bodies dead when not tossing & turning and my mind focus on the pain. Pain reminds me I’m not dead, it also reminds me I did something wrong and if I know what that wrong thing is then I should avoid doing that so that I am not in pain.
Anyway I must have fell asleep only to wake up at 3am to have to go shishi. *L* So I’m thinking since I’m up I may as well take a pill. So I do and go back to bed. I was expecting instant gratification, no more pain and instant sleep. I lied there thinking ok where’s my sleep and why hasn’t the throbbing stopped. Sleep and less pain must have happened because I was way too comfortable when the alarm went off for I don’t know how long but the noise made my arm throb again. Fine, I need to drag myself to the gym anyway and work out the kinks.
Working out felt good. Use it or loose it. I may ache again tonight but its not like I didn’t try to do something about it. I’m good with it, I think. *L* Its just that the throbbing pain zaps my energy and I hate that feeling. Its the mucsle under the the shoulder blade. What is that. Trese Major or Latissimus Dorsi, not - its not my lats its higher. Having aches & pains keeps me in touch with my kineseology, like do I need to be. I think so. Doing tricep exercises really felt healing, it took away some of the stiffnes. So I had to look it up….
Coracobrachialis ~ yeah dat ~ it lies between the biceps and the triceps on the inner side of the upper arm. Yeah thats where all the throbbing is. Maybe.
Anyway its there somewhere and I’ll get over it. This too shall pass. But when you’re going thru it, it doesn’t happen quite soon enough.
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June 6th, 2005 at 1:21 pm
Aloha Tita Lika, that pain you describe is the one that we get when we stressed out! I also get it when I over work or play. What I usually do is mix some wintergreen, alcohol and baby oil in a bottle and have someone rub me down…it use to be Mark but Mark’s gone. Now, I have to kinda do it myself and that in itself is an experience. I kinda throw it in the back then all the room smell the same…all splattered all ova the creation.
I’m writing kapakahi cause they repaving my sidewalk in front of my door. Jack hammering and who knows what else. Can’t close the door cause so hot and humid. Ok, I going take one pill, I feel like screaming.
Take care and
God bless…………..
Lynn