I’ve been obsessing ova my weight, as in I need to loose it. Seems like I always need to loose. I told my doctor about it and he’s like don’t sweat it, its the nature of the condition, blah blah blah. He’s rolly poley too. He just laughs with me and reassures me I know what I need to do. Keep up the gym thing. Stay away from desserts. What ~ no Olive Garden Tiramisu. Shucks ~ I’m a dessert first kinda person. The people at Olive Garden don’t believe I want my Tiramisu first. But I digress…..
I didn’t loose weight afta surgery. I’ve gained 10lbs since then. I thought I was sick, therefore I was suppose to loose weight. Loosing weight has not been in the picture. I am uncomfortable in my clothes. Thats a sign. Thats IF I can fit in my clothes. I’m working on it. Maybe I need drugs. Nah, drugs will just mess up the drugs I’m all ready on. It’ll work out. I’m just impatient and want instant gratification. If I’ve worked out and eaten 3 nutrious meals shouldn’t the scale move down? With me, not necessarily so.
I’m thinking I’m juss a head case there fore I need a head doctor. No, I just need to quit eating junk. Or eating in general. No, I juss need to workout harder. See, I know I’m suppose to burn more calories then I take in….So wots the problem here?
Oh, its called metabolism. I have none. Or what I have is outta whack, so need to whack it into gear. I’ll figure it out. The scale was going down, anden something happened….what was it? I’m loosing it, but not the weight; anyway the scale started to go up again. A dang yoyo; that goes up more consistantly then down. Not right. Anyway I just need to vent and write about this weight loss issue or the lack of .
Maybe its that BMI dilly the body mass index dilly says I’m obese. How rude. Maybe I should be grateful it doesn’t say ‘morbidly obese’. My Doc laughs at the BMI dilly and me. He says its cause you’re short! Gee Doc, you went to school for that. LOL I find it funny haha. People tell me I’m not fat and I pince an inch, ok more like a handful and I’m like compared to what?
I suppose fat is a state of mind. I have a fat mind and also some other parts but so be it, for now.
I am a work in progress. Although the progress is a bit slow………………..
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