Lika’s Log

Manoy Tata Eleutario Esmith said:

Puh-leese DEpress DE meat prom DE pree-zerr so I kun make DE adobo por DEE-neer.

I juss made dat up. Lame huh? I was feeling the adobo lovers love there for a minute. *L*

Anyway I feel like I started my blog in auntiepupule.com/blog ~ Below is a piece of my comment to her:

I think you can be depressed and function normally. Its kinda like you go thru da motions of life doing wot you gotta do & wotevas, but mind wise you stay sad or off balance, you know somethings not right. There’s moe saddness then there needs to be. Cause like even doe you know you blessed and have all your needs, there’s this certain feeling of sadness dat kinda follows you around. A lot of times it makes you wonder, why?

It bugs me sometimes that I get a sad feeling and I have no reason to be sad. Its probably normal but then again whats normal? Normal compared to abnormal? I wonder if there is anyone who never gets depressed or feeling down in the dumps. I’m guessing most people will have that feeling at one time or another if its a normal thing. I guess it becomes “abnormal” when you constantly feel and/or stay stuck in that sad & in the dumps mode.

I like to blame the fluctuation of hormones. I mean rags have a bad name anyway why not blame it on that time of the month, even doe it ain’t that time of the month. That time comes eventually. So wotdahay. Its a female thing. Then wen the rags become less of an issue aka menopause; then its the estrogen level. Yeah, my estrogen fluctuates so I feel flucted up in the mind. *L*

Some people deal better then others when it comes to sadness or depression. Then again some people don’t know that they are depressed. Everybody gets sad not everybody stays sad.

I dislike it wen I have that depressed feeling and I have nothing to be depressed about. I mean I am generally better off then most people and am grateful for all that I have. Even if I’d like more “fun money” well don’t we all. My needs are taken care of SO why da sad or depressed feelings? Estrogen depletion? Nah, that would make all women manic depressives. LOL

I think for me when I get caught in that kind of a funk, assuming I recognize it; I gotta go do something productive. Physical. Escapism. So for me that would be workout, play tennis or just walking makes me feel better. Something to do about endorphines and adrenelin or whatever, its a good thing. Reading mysterys works for me too. Sometimes I sew by hand making quilt blocks that I’ve yet to piece together. One of these days.

Surfing is sometimes good for what ails me when I’m in a funk. I know that I’m really really sick when I won’t get online. When getting online is too hard of a task for me; its a sign something is very very wrong. Being online gives me access to research & read about others in the same boat so to speak. When I read about other peoples ailments and issues; I’m like wow, I not that bad off. I’m okay, shuddup and be grateful.

I think awareness is key. So is praying. You gotta believe yeah.

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