I was waiting for someone to write in hea. So wea all MY writahs at? Again? Hoooo da kine…. Fine, I going write.
So somebody in class told me: “You must not have any drama or stress in your life?” WHO does not have something or other going on in their life. The difference between me and THEM is that I don’t talk about IT the way THEY do. Everybody has a story. Everybody has ups and downs. Lotta downs. Great ups. With that said, WE ALL deal with our dramas, pilikias, and pissed off-edness in our own way.
Most people talk about it. Lot of people talk about it over and over and over. Every detail repeated from person to the next, and like where I use to work in cubicle city; I heard the same story related over and over, to every and anyone who asked. I listened. Then sometimes I tune out. Not to be rude or anything but after I hear the story for the umpteenth time, I get desensitized and it doesn’t sound as “critical” as the first time I heard the story. You know what I mean.
I don’t talk about MY Dramas because one story will lead to another and next thing you know, I’m telling and saying everything I told myself I wouldn’t say. I can’t tell just a piece of a story because every drama story comes with a history. So then I’d have to give history and what not. Time is too precious to go over “da drama” ova and ova. Thats just me. I tend not to dwell on my drama and I think maybe I should but been there done that. Tired awreddy.
Maybe its a coping skill I learned as a kid. Ignore it and you won’t know its there. Its also called, its gonna bite you in da ass. But wotdahey I got a big thick ass, I can handle it. Or can I? It makes me wonder sometimes. I just don’t make a big deal outta whateva it is that there is that needs to be made a big deal of. (WOT?)
[I am juss free typing here and letting my fingas do da tinking - LOL] Its a writing therapy thing I do. I’ll read this afta I pau write and I’ll wonder what in theeHELL am I writing about. Does it matter? NO. Its kinda of like “if it feels good write it.” Wait, that should be about s - e - x ain’t it? LOL
It threw me for a loop wen I was told “I must not have any drama/stress in my life.” Stress is one of those self made things. If I think I’m stressed I am, so what am I gonna do? Write wierd-ed out pieces la dis! Its therapy. hehehehehe
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