Lika’s Log

I think if women remembered, truly remember the pain, the serious comfortable-ness of shitting out a child they would not have moe then one child. In fact if women seriously vividly remembered and related their physical hardship of bringing a child into this world, they would scare the bejesus out of the next generation and maybe kids wouldn’t have kids. LOL But I think with the mircle of birth comes the mircle of “how soon we fo’get” the true painful pain that one goes thru is erased with the joys of motherhood.

Some people deal with pain better then others. We all have a different “threshold” of what pain is. Some of us are more wusses then others. Some have a high pain tolerance, everyones wired different right. I think from a young age we develope the mental toughness or mental wussy-ness of what we equate pain to.

I had to fill out forms for a new yearly spread your legs checkup kind of doctor. So I was doing my homework of filling out the forms. Well one form, 12 pages and then some. Having to fill in the HISTORY of surgeries and what nots, I had to refer to a journal that I kept during my “challenging times.” There’s all the dates, doctors appointments when I went in and passed out and what not; what I did or more like what I couldn’t do.

Its strange to go back and read about how “not so good” I was feeling. Yet I functioned like nothing was wrong and my body just wanted to lie still and not move. Well I did a lot of that, but I think I also should have done more of not moving. I kinda know better now. I think I learned what helps me heal. We all know what makes us feel bad or sick but we all dont’ pay attention sometimes to the things that help us heal and make us better. Or I don’t I think. Cause in looking back, I know there are things I shoulda, coulda, woulda done different or better. Then again hind site is 20/20. Live and learn.

I think if I was truely afraid of not getting SICK again, not having to be in the hospital for one thing or another; then I would really loose weight. You know what I mean. With health issues everythings related and I feel like if I know that getting my rear in gear and DOWNsizing, I will be a healthier person . Right? Right. (As I eat a piece of cake.)

I know what makes me bigger then I should be. I know what I need to do. So I do both? DUH. Burn more calories and eat less calories. Then again you know, THERE’S NO CURE FOR HUD HEAD YEAH! *L*

I am pau going to da docta or hospital for the week. So the short story is shot in da ass, shot in da ass, down 7 nuke caps anden get scanned. LOL Oh dats da shortcut pidgin version.

So what happened was: Monday I went to da Drs and got shot 1. Tuesday shot 2. Why I no could get both of’em same time I dunno. I not one docta. Wednesday I went to da hospital report to Nuke Med section aka radiology and dey gave me 7 capsules to take. Simple enough right. So ha’come I took long time to down seven pills. Cause I do’em one at one time.

I could not be a druggie. Took me fo’eva. I was like, “is that 7 yet?” NO, 2 more. Hooo I just gotta go shishi drinking all dis watah. LOL Anden I askem’ “are there any restrictions, can I eat am I not suppose to eat?” Da Tech guys says, ‘yeah you can eat but wait at least 30 minutes because we don’t want you throwing up.’ I was like - “OH that would be serious nuke waste huh, gotta call hazmat.” We was just cracking up.

It reminded me of da first time I had da nuclear medicine thing. On the paper work it states: If you are in an accident or die, you must tell the physician that you have had RAI-131. HUH? I told my docta, did you read this? If I die I ain’t telling anybody jack. LOL He was rolling his eyes, you know what we mean. Yeah well you guys need to reword it.

So today was get scanned day. I go in, lie on this flat bed and it feeds me into a machine. Kinda of MIR-ish. No biggie. Been there done that. I just close my eyes and take a nap because it takes like 20 minutes. Well there was another machine and another person getting it done too. Someone who had never gotten it done before. Well the lady kept moving her head I guess and the tech kept telling her to keep still cause then the machine won’t get good readings and what not. Oh I guess she didn’t understand English either so the Tech told the husband how important it was to not move and he had translate.

So pau now. I go docta in two weeks and he tells me the good, bad and or the ugly. The way I look at it, I’m still here so it can’t and won’t be that bad if bad at all. Hana hou next year.

I was afraid I wasn’t going to be able to go thru with these tests cause I had the flu. But it was not an issue. Two days after I get the shots I’m thinking I should know what the side effects are and go look it up. Late reaction on my part. duh? So whats one of the symtoms or after effects. “May cause flu like symtoms.” Noshit & what if you all ready have th flu, den you going feel even moe shitty. Hmmm that explains the 102temp Monday afternoon. Oh no wonder I left work early. Oh yeah with all this “protocalling” I go to work afta. I gotta pay for my meds. *L*

I was reading all the side effects of thyrogen. It said if you die its usually happens with 24 hours. I read that 48 hours after the fact so I was feeling safe. And there’s only been 1 death and the person had 6 shots and he still had his thyroid and he was 77 or something like that. All I know is, if you’re a dude with thyroid issues, you are worst off den one wahine. One moe thing for me be grateful for. LOL

I’m still conjested. My voice is still low & raspy. So hey call me. Yeah right? LOL

P.S. I did not turn off the comment of the previous entry. I can’t even fine an on or off? Where’s it at? If I did do it I don’t know how I did it and I was truely sick. Ok I am truely sick. *L*

Anyway I think so. Its all about perspective aint it?

So I went to my follow up appointment. You know the needle in the neck test? Anyway biopsy showed no junk cells present in the thyroid. Good sign. Then again I know that the fine needle biospy is not conclusive. Because before I had my first surgery no had nothing thats why only the right side wen get hemo. So wen dey went insai anden pathology den as why had to hemo da ada half hence da 2nd surgery. But that was good too it turned out A-OK, I mean I’m here right. Alot of things “coulda” happen. Stuff I don’t talk/write about. Cause why, could, woulda, should, no need neva mind. Its all good. *L*

I still gotta go get da shotindass therapy. Oh dat don’t sound right at all. LOL I get this serious injection anden I get scanned anden they can tell if the biopsy was right, wrong or indifferent. Its a yearly thing. Use to be the RAI - raidioactive iodine, nuclear medicine stuff with da low iodine diet etc. Da diet itself was killa. So no need da diet, just go docta bend ova. Hala!

Da docta was telling me, “I am please at what I am seeing, there is nothing in the thyroid area. BUT I can’t tell you there’s nothing there because it may be else where.” And I said, “SO IT hasn’t left the building?” We started cracking up. He was like “that is a good way to put it.”

I’m encouraged by that. Then discourage by the weight issue. But hey you reap what you sow. And I have soooo been grinding. All about da choices yeah. Obviously da wrong kine. And it don’t help that I have not been gymrat lately. Hmmm soon. lol

Ohyeah so see prayers do work. I/we are proof of dat huh? Mahalo fo’yo pules. Continued prayers all around.

This morning I had a fine needle biopsy done. No biggie. Had it done before, I’m so experienced o’wot yeah. I was going ask everybody pray fo’me but I was like nah, I go pray myself. I can. I mean da extra always helps but I figgah get people wit moe hardships den me and my in office biopsy right. I was like just another doctas visit. Oh except I getting stabbed inda neck.

K-so I went no big deal right. I lie down, da nurse hold da ultrasound camera dilly and da docta stab me in da neck with one 5-6 inch needle dat suck cells outta my neck so can send’um to da lab. Simple procedure. Except if you think about it too much.

Needles! Stabbing in da neck! HELLO!

Pretty graphic yeah. A Discovery Health channel image or something to that effect. LOL

I’m lying there trying to not make funny face cause if I move my face muscles I’m moving my neck mucsles. No ‘pose to move gotta keep still, serious kine. I mean it could get ugly yeah, long needle in neck, neck muscles moving…use your imagination. Some serious oow-wees yeah.

One sample on one side was done so was going do da ada side. Da nurse asks me “Does it hurt?” Its local anesthesia kine. I tell her it feels like cramps. She’s like “you have cramps? Where your back where is it hurting?” I’m like - NO, da sensation ITS like having cramps. It feels like my uterus moved up to my neck?

Her and da docta start cracking up. Me too. Anden he tells me, “don’t swallow.” Since when does a man say dat? I got slapped. Ai us was just cracking up.

So guess now is a good time to pray. Pray da “junk cells” makidiedead or are not active. Mahalo for your pule. I guess what was .88 is now 1.10, which means theres been an increase in size or is it cells, both huh, duh? So I gotta have da shotinda-ass medicine as oppose to radioactive iodine. Which is a good thing. Usually I have “something” done yearly and its all good.

I came home with a bad headache. I’m thinking its from thinking too much about it. But my neck feels tired and a little sore. Again, too much focusing on it anden wen pau; way too tired of thinking it.

Oh and to make it worst, I had a dentist appointment scheduled too in da aftanoon. I was thinking, take off one day and squeeze in as may appointments as possible. You know what? Thats not such a good idea. Not wit one docta stabbing my neck anden anoda one digging in my mouth with that supersonic stuff that gave my headache a headache.

I tawt I was hudhead, but I not. I just one sowa head. What with all dese doctas humbugging me. LOL Preventive care. I figgah each visit adds a day or month or year to my life so its all good. Neva mind complaining. My BAD for scheduling two appointments on da same day. Sheesh live and learn yeah. *L*

Gotta go take my drugs and get to bed. Hanahana manana.

Have you ever wondered if the email you get is true or not. Cause I know me, I believe alot I read. So how many times have we gotten the email about to freeze your bottle of water and no microwave with plastic wrap or whatever?

Today I got a really informative Cancer piece and added to da bottom was da no freeze dis & no microwave dat. Personally, I’ve had da attitude ~ if I all ready have cancer what difference does it make. Attitude I know. I live in the Valley of Triple Digit weather, I’m sorry I’m freezing my bottle of water.

Finally today I “snoped it!” Went to www.snopes.com and searched for da freeze water bottle issue. FALSE! Thank you. Urban legend. Then again even if was true I would still have an attitude about it but thats another entry. LOL

Oh & remember reading about da doctor from Castle Hospital. The Doctor being cited is a PhD not an MD. Ok, no disrespect to PhD-ers cause I gave birth to one; but dang it just goes to show you can’t believe everything you read and you must do your own research cause there is more to it then “what it says in the email.” *L*

Not to be a smart ass or anything, ok to be a smartass….when I first read the “don’t freeze the water bottle” email….my first thought was “how does freezing release chemicals?” Doesn’t freezing mean freezing make hard cause really cold so how can da chemical be release. I neva know da answa, do I look like a scientist. Now HEAT, the microwave thing I thought was moe realistic. Kinda sort of cause its heat that would bind chemicals or make germs active? Ain’t it?

Cause like did you know its bad for females to have sex in a hot tub cause bacteria thrives in da hot wahtah and can go insai yo’belot. Fo’real. So wahines make sure you…neva mind neva mind, wahines can figgah dat part out demselves, I’m sure. Eh but I digress….

Below is a list I got in my email. I haven’t snoped it or anything…..but I want to add MY 2CENTS anyway. LOL

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

~What MY biology professor told me (and I believe him) because he taught doctors to be doctors and he collected eyeballs LOL; A cancer cell is basically a bad/an unhealthy mutant cell so to speak. We all have good cells and bad cells. In most cases the bad cells are killed off by the good cells BUT if you have more bad cells then good cells then the bad cells win and that is called Cancer.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person’s lifetime.

~My professor told me: If you live long enough you will get cancer.

3. When the person’s immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.
~See #1

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

~My endocronologist said: Stay away from processed food and fast foods. But do I listen….still eating junk. Less junk but still yet…. need more fruits and vegetables.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

~All my doctors told me this, eat well and exercise. I’m still work on the eat well part.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

~I’ve never had Chemo, knockonwood making da sign of da cross and all dat no bachi me stuff. What I know about Chemo I’ve learned from others who have had treatment. You need to be physically & mentally strong for it becasue it drains you, literally zaps you.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

~Yes, its covering an area and not a specific cell(s). So both good & bad cells get destroyed sometimes, you gotta pray all da bad ones get zapped.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

~I’ve had Radioactive Iodine and yes it reduces/shrinks it and sometimes zaps all of it. But with what I have, I know that it could be zero for a few years and next thing you know its back. That happened to my friend. 5 years of nothing and this year its back, so you neva know. Just gotta do the regular checkup thing.

9 When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

~True, it makes you weak so yeah so don’t want to be getting anybody’s germs cause a cold or flu can do serious damage.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

~Probably. Cancer cells matastasize(?) they frkng move on their own. I don’t know if surgery would do it but you figure any kind of surgery puts your body into stress mode so your body is susceptible to anything.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.

~No processed food. More fruits and vegetables. Go organic. Easier said then done let me tellya…

CANCER CELLS FEED ON:

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in color. Better alternative is Bragg’s aminos or sea salt.

~I guess? The sugar substitute I was told to use is Stevia. Hawaiian salt is betta den table salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soya milk cancer cells are being starved.

~I dunno, I partially lactate intolerance. Aka I gotta go battroom, now! LOL But I still eat ice cream. Badpatient! LOL

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

~True. My Docta said gotta be range free kine meat. Meats in the super markets have additives & what not, unless it says its range free aka you gotta pay way plenny moe.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains,seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment.About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts)and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

~I guess…. lol….eat more fruits and vegetables dats all I know.

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine.Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

~Too late I went Starbucks awreddy. LOL I’m a tea person.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

~Eat yogurt or Activia regularly.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body’s killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

~Yes. Less meat is better.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body’s own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body’s normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

~I’m told also necessary selinium & fish oil.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger, unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.

~TRUE, I am proof of this. Yes and it comes with the power of prayer from yourself and everyone. Both by those you know and don’t know. I think with the Internet this power of prayer by people you don’t know is a bigger blessing then any of us realize.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

~YES, and I did go to the gym this morning, what a goodgirl am I! I think I need to do yoga.

Oh my no hunkypunky appointment ~ duh cancelled ~ Docta had a personal emergency out of the office for an undisclosed time. They will call me to reschedule. So much for the mock virgin weekend. LOL

Today was Endocrinolgist day, my regular once a month which is more like every 6-8 weeks. Every time I go the nurses start laughing at me, ok with me. They’re like “oh no here she is” ~ but dats a good thing because they know we going end up cracking up. I guess nobody juss busses out and say or ask da trute or somting cause as all I do.

No can help if I blunt. How else would I say it? I suppose if I thought about it I could be all professional discreet stick in the mud kind talking. But hooo as take to long fo’tink it. I juss buss out…..right.

So Ok bad things: up three lbs even doe I go gym everyday - muscle is heavier fat I thinking. Cause you know I’m soooo muscle bound. My blood pressure was a tad bit high…. da nurse asked me “why do you think your blood pressure is up?” Oh, you mean other then I’m unemployed and have no income at this time…my answer was “KFC!” She looked at me you went to KFC for lunch? “UH-huh” So she wrote dat down.

So da doctor comes to see me, reads my chart…. looks at me wit stink eye and says “KFC!” I was like “my name is Lika and I’m a fast food addict.” He laughs, “more fresh vegtables & fruits, think low iodine diet but you don’t have to be so strick with the upcoming treatment.” Ok fine.

Soon as the insurance gives persmission I will be scheduled for Thyrogen. What is Throgen? The short version - two shots in da ass and a body scan. LOL Fo’real. Go google thyrogen.

So da nurse is telling me instructions. Usually I have R-131 treatment which is the nuclear pill dill and 1 week of house arrest. So I ask - this is a shot in da ass right? She’s cracking up. Do I look like Forrest Gump who says “BUTTOCKS.” Da nurse says “TWO!” I ‘m like: “Two! WHY to balance out each cheek?” Now da ada nurses are laughing.

So da way it goes is day 1 shot in da ass, day 2 shot in da ada ass. Oi, how many asses I get? Well you know what I mean 1 shot per cheek. I guess this is the part where a big ass is an advantage. LOL I’m hoping. I dunno I neva see da size of da needle. On da turd day, yeah da third day I get scanned. Its kind of an MRI-ish machine. And pau.

I ask the nurse; “Do I need to bring some one for this treatment or is it ok if I’m by myself, this is not something thats going to floor me or anything?” She says, “Oh it doesn’t hurt.” I looked at her and said “Thats cause it ain’t your ass and thats what you guys said about da shock treatment.” The other nurse was just laughing cause she da one went do shock treatment and it was too much fun.

So I gotta go eat my fish and rice now. I know no ‘pose to eat rice either. Eat brown rice. Right, I really like brown rice, puh-leese. Spanish rice or Gandude rice be way betta, I tink. lol

About seven years or so ago I was walking around WalMart with my girlfriend as we walked by the pharmacy area she said “wait let me check my blood pressure.” So she did. Then I did.

When my numbers came up we both looked at each with big eyes. She looked at me and said “you need to go to the doctors like now.” I’m like I’m fine I’ll go tomorrow. And I did because…..the top number was 200something & the bottom was 140 or 160 or something to that high effect.

So I went to the doctors, by that time it was 180something/130something; sitll off the charts right. I went thru all these test plus EKG. I was told I should try and bring it down with diet & exercise. After a few months if it doesn’t come down significantly then I would need medication. For some reason, I did not want any pills, so diet & exercise.

I brought it down but it was sill considered a high low because it averaged like 140/100; in that range. One of my doctors said I just might be wired that way. LOL But ever since I saw the 200/160 or whatever I’ve been very conscious that I am a candidate for high blood pressure. Plus both my parents had/have it.

Well fast forward to yesterday when I went to WalMart and I walked past the high blood pressure machine….119/88….woohooo big difference from 200! My sister told me I need to get my own blood pressure cuff dilly and the WalMart machines are probably not calibrated correctly.

I know when I was in the hospital for my other issues and I was hooked up to the monitors; one of the first thing I noticed was my blood pressure was very normal. Oh, I think that had to do with the anesthesia. All calm & sedated!

I never thought much about having to know what my blood pressure is; you know outta sight outta mind. I’m glad that I’ve gotten my high blood pressure under control with diet & exercise. What diet? LOL Ok, part of it I think is internalized stress, I don’t rant outloud enough. Now I understand the importance of it & and I gotta go to the gym anyway for general up keep. LOL Everybody remember to take your low dosage/baby asprin once a day.

Now that I have my blood pressure #’s in check I have work on the weight #. *L*

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From Webmd:

A healthy adult blood pressure is 140/90.

You answered: FALSE
The correct answer is: FALSE

Normal blood pressure in an adult is less than 120/80.

People with blood pressures over 120-139/80-89 have a condition called prehypertension, which indicates a high risk for developing hypertension (high blood pressure). Experts recommend these people take aggressive steps to lower this risk — stopping smoking, losing weight, increasing physical activity, and eating a low-fat diet.

Anyone with a blood pressure measured at 140/90 or higher on at least two occasions has high blood pressure and will generally require drug treatment to lower it.

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I had a doctors appointment today. Not enough I had to do lab work aka a vile of blood the other day, they had to take another vile. I also had an ultrasound. Sounds hapai yeah. Ultrasound MY NECK, not opu. So den Doc will compare my blood work with the ultrasound results and maybe I have to do RAI (radioactive iodine) treatment and maybe not. No biggie, pop a nuclear pill and be unda house arrest for a week.

Also today I got SHOCK treatment. Seriously. Something about biosensors? LOL So they or the nurse puts these electrode tape dilly things on me feet. First she did my feet, my right calf and my right hand. Has anyone had these things done to them before. This was one of those VIRGIN experiences.

The test is done to check your nerve endings like for neuraupathy & stuff. Usually diabetics are tested. I’m not diabetic but my Doc he’s an Endocrinologist with all the latest samples, bells & whisels and crap, so he clumps me in with everybody else and tests me for this that and the other. It don’t hurt to learn if my nerves are shot or what?

So the nurse hooks me up right and she’s talking to me and its starts shocking to me and I’m like “OW” talking talking talking “hey” talking “ouch” I’m like: “this is like torture treatment ouch if you crank up the voltage owwee you can make owww people confess ouch shit.” We’re both cracking up. She’s like sssshhh we’re making too much noise. She picks up the little machine dilly, and says it just runs on 2AA batteries. I’m like the bigger the batteries the bigger the boost I bet.

Laughing laughing laughing. She does my calf muscle. I tell her: ok thats not that bad because I think it has more fat then the feet. We’re laughing laughing. The she has to do my right hand. She tells me to put my hand palm up, tapes the thing around my wrist, it goes down my palm then there’s two tape things goes around my middle finger. She says bend these two fingers. I’m like I have to “flip you off.” She’s like “yeah” and we’re cracking up.

Then I say: “Hey you could put this around a penis huh? Like if a penis doesn’t work this thing will kick start it yeah. Hook it up to a car battery, jump start IT like a car. It’ll make something come up.”

We were cracking up. We come out of the room the nurse tells the Doctor & other nurses that I’m awful. Yeah so, awful funny. I had shock treatment as why, who not going be lolo.

Which do you want first? *L* Actually its all good. Its good information. Its good to know. Because knowing is half the battle. (G.I. Joe)

Bad news… well not that bad but bad cause I gotta take another drug. Lipitor. Hello. You know what that means. Yup, high cholesterol. I couldn’t just be high, had to add the cholesterol. So what is the doctor saying my arteries are clogged? Semi clogged. He didn’t say that. He said your numbers are high. I need to step up on the workouts. Sir, yes sir. I need to go to the gym on weekends. Too much sleeping in, ya’know. LOL And half the time I’m up anyway so why not get my behind to the gym? Yeah, I’ll work on that…..weekend mornings to the gym, what a concept…. not like I haven’t done it before. I’ve been such a slacker. I average 4 days a week need to up it to six, huh. I shall make a note of it… duh… I just did. I need to just do it.

Ok the good news… I ain’t a diabetic. People have been telling me that. My sister especially. She works for an internist. She deals with diabetics everyday. When I told her my doctor had me testing my glucose 4 times a day she said “you’re not a diabetic, for one its not in our genes and YOU have thyroid issues which pretty much could mean anything & everything.” Ok, thank you for your support.

Testing my blood sugar has been very educational for me. I can see how food effects me and it makes more sense. Like fat accumulation is not enough or something. *L* But I’ve been trying my best to stay away from desserts. Dessert first freak that I am.

I’ve been to Olive Garden and I didn’t even order Tiramisu. Good girl. I ate No Sugar Added Rocky Road! Bad girl. LOL It says no sugar added, BUT it has chocolate covered nuts in it….mmmmmmm there’s your sugar and marshmello cream, probably more sugar. THEY did not add sugar BUT the stuff they put in it had sugar……Hmmmmmmmm.

I keep telling myself I UNDERSTAND the correlation between the sugar and my health…..SO WHY do I eat dessert? Addiction. I need intervention. Oh, the doctor is the intervention. DUH. He gives me drugs. I should be grateful? LOL

Nah, its all good. I really do understand the consequences because I am a product of it. Live and learn. Eat right or die, you know. Its all about choices. I should tattoo dat on my hand so I can see IT everytime I feed my face. Maybe in fine print on the side of my index finger….

I lost 2 lbs! woohooo only 28 more to go. LOL

Its been two weeks now that I’ve been taking my blood sugar 4 times a day. Before each meal and before going to bed. My fingertips feel all pricklyish and I can never remember which finger I pricked last.

Doing this measuring my blood sugar has been a real education. I understand more how what I eat & drink effects my blood sugar. Also ones blood sugar goes up or down with stress or too little food, too much food. Mostly too much food. LOL

I’ve cut out dessert first. Oh, what a good girl am I. Yeah well its all about “eat right or die.” Decisions decisions, ya’know. *L* I stop cooking rice, so I no eat rice. But I eat rice if I go to one plate lunch place la dat. I’ve become much more aware of WHAT I eat.

I think I’m doing a good job. I’ve brought the average down on my blood sugar so thats a good thing. My blood sugar has not been extremely high. Its still in that borderline range. Hopefully me keeping it down now, will teach me how to keep it down forever.

I could be so depressed thinking about what I use to eat or want I want to eat or haven’t eaten. I just have to tell myself I am prolonging my life. Thats a good thing right?

Long healthy life vs. a short fat one; its a no brainer. *L*