Confusion
I’ve been feeling very confused lately. There are some things going on in my life where I need to decide which path to take. I wish I had binoculars to look down each path. One path I’ve been traveling down for a really long time. There were many flowers along the way but also many thorns. For the last couple of years the path has become overgrown and was not tended to - it made it difficult to move forward, the path was impossible to navigate and so I went in circles time and time again until I just got sick and tired.
Now that I am at a crossroads, so to speak, I can see down the new path but not very far. I don’t even know if the path continues on to any destination. I can see maybe a mile or so down before it becomes misty. However, the short distance I’ve taken on this other path makes me feel lighthearted and happy. I can smell the flowers again - I can see the colors of the leaves and the sky and the rainbow.
Do I try moseying along this new trail to see where it may lead? If it is a dead end will the other path be gone? If so, will there be another path to guide me to where I want to be or will I end up standing alone in this forest?
I wish I knew the answers. Maybe I should just find somewhere to sit down until I figure it out…
Loren 
November 21st, 2005 at 9:52 pm
BRAVO! This is your best entry yet! I felt your confusion. I felt your pain. Absoluetly creative and BEAUTIFUL!
MORE!
Please don’t let me and your other readers wait till Christmas!
Love,
Alyn
November 22nd, 2005 at 5:20 am
Ahhh, pray on it. Sleep on it. Make lists, pro & cons. Don’t you have a crystal ball to look into, nahnahnah juss kidding.
We all go thru that indecisive phase of, what now? To do or not to do? Eventually you gotta do something. Which eva way you choose, it’ll work out. You gotta stay on da positive side of it because if you think worst case scenarios, well thats just self defeating.
So pray.*L*
Malama pono.
November 22nd, 2005 at 2:15 pm
Two roads diverge in a yellow wood,
and sorry I could not travel both,
and be one traveler long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could,
to where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear.
Though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about hte same.
And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day,
yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh,
somewhere ages and ages hence.
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
and that has made all teh difference.
Robert Frost. I’m pretty sure.
Walk on my dear, quit looking over your shoulder, and quit doubting yourself. You’re strong and you have a good head on your shoulders, and you use it well. Think deeply and think with clarity. Be bold and don’t avoid the thoughts that scare you, and then when you’ve decided, trust yourself. No need to second guess. Love you.
Lex
November 22nd, 2005 at 8:41 pm
Physical exercise might worK Loren.
November 23rd, 2005 at 5:06 pm
Hi Lynn,
Thanks for the comment. I promise to write again before Christmas!
Loren
November 23rd, 2005 at 5:08 pm
Lika,
I seem to have misplaced my crystal ball but in the meantime I’ll take your advice! See which side has more pros! Happy Thanksgiving!
Loren
November 23rd, 2005 at 5:09 pm
Lexie,
Thanks for the unending support you give. I was trying to think of that poem!
Loren
November 23rd, 2005 at 5:10 pm
Hi Ron,
Thanks for the comment - I’ll take a run around the block and see what happens. So if I’m not such a couch potato it’ll be easier to make the decision?
Loren