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Writing and Comments

Friday, October 14th, 2005

So I’ve realized that I’m not writing as often as I’d plan or as often as I’d like. I’ll be in the car, or at work, or in bed and thinking of many subjects I could write about. Then, when I am ready to write, I either don’t have the time or my computer is slower than a turtle. Maybe I just plain need to make some extra time after the kids go to bed.

As far as comments, I love getting feedback. I don’t feel bad if someone doesn’t comment, since I know I read many blogs and often can’t comment - usually because I’m at work. Today I got my first odd comment. I did not approve it though I’m curious who would take the time to tell me that they think I’m gay and that they love me, with an expletive tossed in for good measure. Whoever it is, I hope they have their own blog since they have more time than I do.

Anyway, I’d like to give a Shout Out (even though I’d never use that term in real life) to my mom, who sent me a huge box of clothes. I am very excited to have something to wear to work since jeans are looked down upon. I know it’s good to dress up a little to go to work, I’m just not really a dress up kinda girl. Maybe I can work toward that instead of wearing my basic black shirt/blue jeans uniform every day of my life. I need someone to nominate me for one of those wardrobe makeover shows. To have the crew show me how to put myself together to radiate my true inner self - ha ha.

I think I’ll plan to write again tonight or tomorrow. Now that it is in writing, I have to stick to it. :)

Loren

Bad Hair Days

Monday, October 3rd, 2005

Leimamo’s post about having her hair straightened made me think back of my hair history. For the past oh… 10 years it’s been long, all one length, straight and brown. Ahem, except when I was 20 and got my first sorta real job (not fast food). I had my hair cut to just above my shoulders and when the Supercuts stylist was almost finished I asked “Can you give me bangs?” mmm… Bad Idea! She gave me bangs, cut to the middle of my forehead. I cried and cried!

But that wasn’t as bad as the short, boyish, pixie cut I had for what seemed to be my entire childhood. My childhood hair memories consist of my mom chasing me with the scissors. I was like her own little Beauty Head Doll with hair that actually grew back! Sorry Mom, I love you! Actually we did fun hair stuff too, like home perms that took forever and never lasted more than 3 weeks. Using Sun-In until my hair was blonde - a nice contrast against my black eyebrows… Nice, too when it was so damaged from the color and perms that we had to let it grow out. So in one high school photo the top half of my head is brunette and the bottom blonde. Later in high school I wanted to have Manic Panic bright red hair. I wasn’t allowed to use Manic Panic (too punky for my parents taste) so I used Henna instead which I kind of liked the effect of.

I used to color my mom’s hair for her too. Sometimes she’d get the little cap with the holes in it, the one that you pull the hair through with the crochet hook thingy. That was fun. Or the paint on highlights. To this day, my mom has her hair colored and cut often. She’s brave! She’s a teacher, a wonderful kindergarten teacher but I still wonder if maybe she should have went to beauty school!

I think all of this is why I’m terrified to have my hair cut. I get it cut every year or two to get rid of split ends. I know I should do it more often, every six weeks is recommended right? The few times that I have had more than a few inches cut off, I feel depressed. I’m not saying that my hair is ALL THAT but I do receive a lot of compliments on it, more than any other physical feature, so it’s very important to my self confidence.

I would like to do something a little bit different with it. Like layers or something. Like my cartoon avatar girl, she has cute hair!

Since we moved to Hawaii, we have new hair issues, like UKUS. I think it took a year to finally get rid of these lovely little creatures. I probably could have paid for an interisland trip with the $$$ I spent on various chemical and home remedies. We used Rid, Walmart brand Rid, Long’s Brand Rid, Nix (which finally did the trick), Olive Oil, Vinegar, Tea Tree Oil, Mayonnaise (that was sick), Robi Comb (a motorized comb that supposedly catches and zaps the ukus), every single lice comb sold in the store, hair color (after I read the haircolor chemicals might kill them and my daughter ended up red hair, hee hee), on and on. To top it off, my best friend came to visit from California and went home with her own little crawling souvenir. Knock on wood, they’re gone, hopefully for good. They are kind of cute after a while, I wouldn’t say I miss them though.

Loren

Aloha Monday

Monday, October 3rd, 2005

What makes me smile today…

My children, always!!! Even when they drive me nuts! My daughter is one perceptive girl, she never misses out on a thing which means you can’t hide anything from her, but it is also amazing to see what she’ll come up with next. My son, who is supportive of me and affectionate.

My friends, who will listen to me for hours upon end and day after day complaining about the same problems. I swear they’ve probably considered making a recording to play back during our conversation with key phrases like “he’s not going to change”…

Rainbows and Rain!

My kids’ dad’s genuine, happy, full of love smile that he has when he sees them.

Laughing with coworkers and having a good time at work. Today I was cracking up over a teensy yet hilarious mistake my coworker made when I had to answer the telephone. I composed myself long enough to answer politely and identify myself. My customer’s first words were “I’m trying really hard not to cry”. Well, I’m not being insensitive, but she didn’t have to CRY over her small, easily resolved problem.. Anyway…. I knew I better not even let a snicker or a giggle out or she’d think I was laughing at her!

My cat, she’s such a pumpkin! When she’s not climbing the curtains.

My clean car - thanks to the guys at McKinley Carwash!

Melona Bars

Babies!

Warm Pandesal Bread and Coffee for breakfast on a cool and cloudy morning…

Inside Jokes between friends, like Jamba Juice, Ghetto Princess…

Sharing my high school yearbooks with my kids.

And happy to alive and healthy!

Tropical Depression

Thursday, September 29th, 2005

So Tropical Depression Kenneth is on it’s path to Hawaii. It has started to rain and we’re expecting rain and some wind through the weekend. I love rain!!!

I think the Tropical Depression brought some depression today. Or at least A N X I E T Y and I R R I T A B I L I T Y. Work irritated me all day long for no good reason. I felt like everybody was picking on me! To top it off that I’ve been counting the hours until my paycheck is direct deposited and some of our customers are purchasing objects of desire that cost more than the car I drive. That doesn’t happen every day but it did happen twice in the last week. Then of course, just about every customer I speak to purchases something that costs more than my weekly paycheck. Hmm, I should work on commission…

Three hours and counting till my paycheck is in the bank… Maybe I should start stocking up on my hurricane preparedness kit. Let’s see, I’ll need water and food for how many days? I think the problem would be choosing food that doesn’t need refrigeration, doesn’t need to be cooked or microwaved. What would that be anyway? Maybe my kit will have:

Water
Diet Pepsi (yes, I’m thinking necessities only)
Canned Pineapple (doesn’t need peeling and will prevent scurvy, at least for a few days)
Peanut Butter
Crackers
Candy
Cookies
Cat Food (for the cat of course, or us, once we’re desperate)

Well, I think that should do it. Of course, it’s really not something to take lightly. After I finish here, I’ll find out what really should be in my hurricane / emergency kit and start stocking up.

Thinking about what you can eat without the luxury of electricity, water, etc. reminds me of seeing a homeless family in their van once. The father was asking for food, money, whatever help. I remember giving them whatever extra few dollars I had at the time and while I was leaving, these college girls walked up and gave them a little bag of groceries with non perishables like boxed macaroni and cheese. Hello… wouldn’t common sense tell you that if the family lives in their van, they probably don’t have a way to cook up a pot of mac and cheese…

Loren

Only Wednesday?

Wednesday, September 28th, 2005

I can’t believe this week has gone by so slowly. It feels like it should be 5pm on Friday, my favorite time, when the weekend is ahead of me and full of opportunity!

This weekend I actually have preset plans. Which is weird since I’m not much of a social butterfly. The kids are going to a birthday party on Friday, we’re meeting some friends for a little while on Saturday and going to a beachy birthday party on Sunday for most of the day. In between I’d like to fit in seeing a movie at Restaurant Row and cleaning my apartment, doing some laundry.

Oh, oh, the movie theatre at Restaurant Row (1.00 admission and free, validated parking) reminds me of something to write about. Favorite cheap things to do in Hawaii. Although with this price of gas over $3.00 a gallon, I’ll have to change that to: Favorite cheap things to do within walking distance of home.

I’m dying for dessert and all I have is a pineapple. Actually, I love pineapple, probably more than I love candy. I’m just really lazy and cannot muster the energy to walk into the kitchen and cut the pineapple. Even though I invested in this neato gadget that cores, peels and slices the pineapple all in one easy step. You just slice of the top of the pineapple, position the gadget’s tube thingy over the core, twist the handle on the top until you hit the bottom of the fruit and then pull! Voila, Perfect Pineapple! I sound like Lyle Galdeira from News 8 on “Does It Work?” I love that news segment where he tests those gadgets and other products usually shown on infomercials. I bought a Q Grill after Lyle proclaimed it was a winner. Thanks Lyle!

Which reminds me that we considered naming our son “Lyle” because the meaning is “Island”. But I didn’t care that much for the actual name so we chose another name. Sorry Lyle!

What a rambling post.. my apologies..

Loren

Worn Out

Tuesday, September 27th, 2005

I’m sleepy tonight. Ready to crawl into bed and sleep through until morning. Hopefully without too much disruption from our kitten. She is lovable and sweet but her habit of crawling on my face in the middle of the night is mildly irritating.

Before I go to bed I want to finish the book I treated myself to when I went to Costco yesterday.

The title is: A Million Little Pieces

Author: James Frey

Back of the book blurb: At the age of 23, James Frey woke up on a plane to find his four front teeth knocked out, his nose broken, and a hole through his cheek. He had no idea where the plane was headed nor any recollection of the past two weeks. An alcoholic for ten years and a crack addict for three, he checked into a treatment faclity shortly after landing. There he was told he could either stop using or die before he reached age 24. This is Frey’s acclaimed account of his size weeks in rehab.

“Anyone who has ever felt broken and wished for a better life will find inspiration in Frey’s story.”

I think this book is the newest Oprah Book Club pick. I have sixty pages to go. I can’t really say I’ve ENJOYED the book as it’s very raw and mostly depressing. It gave me a lot to think about. I don’t know very much about drug addiction. I’ve been lucky enough to not have to deal with this on a first hand basis. Thank God for this.

In the book, the staff at the rehab center repeatedly talks about having a high rate of success with their patients, that 15% of their patients will stay clean and not relapse. With the ever growing ICE epidemic, I worry about the future of society and our children.

Okay, well, now I’m depressed. I’m going to finish my book and go to bed.

Loren

Tall, too tall?

Monday, September 26th, 2005

Today, like many days, I wondered why I have to be so tall. It’s not like I’m a giant or anything but I’m taller than most of the cute, petite girls here in HI. It’s uncomfortable sometimes to ride in an elevator and feel like I’m head and shoulders above everyone else.

I’ve always been tall. In school, when we lined up for school pictures, I was always the tallest which meant I was always in the back row. Fine with me, I’ve never been an up front kind of person anyway. I’m not sure when I reached my full height (5′9 or 5′10 on a good posture day) but I think it must have been in junior high. So you’d think after being this size for the past 15 years or so, I’d “grow” into myself.

I’m not sure that I’m aware of my actual size. For instance, I’ve never been attracted to tall men. A tall man to me would be like 5′8″. My husband was only 5′5″ and often shared his insecurities that people were looking at us because I was taller than him. Today I was at Iwilei Costco and saw a couple, a short Filipino man and a much, much taller white lady. They seemed very happy together. I definitely noticed the height difference but maybe only because I’m hypersensitive. Did others notice? Then I started taking a survey of the other couples at Costco. All the other couples were more traditionally height matched.

A bad thing for me about being tall is shoe shopping. My feet are big and a little wide. I normally wear flats (don’t want increase my height) but when I do try on shoes that have high heels and are feminine looking, I feel like I have mahu feet. Am I allowed to say that?

A good thing about being tall is that the junk food and candy that I eat don’t affect my figure as much as they would if I were 5 feet tall. So I’m lucky to have an overall somewhat slender appearance.

My son is going to be tall too. He’s the tallest in his class and continues to grow and grow. Height is good when you’re a guy so I’m happy. I just hope he stops growing before he’s eight feet tall. Yikes!

My daughter is of average height for her age. She takes after her dad more. Though I believe and hope that she’ll also be taller than him. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha… I want her to be tall and beautiful and I don’t want her to have any insecurities. Which reminds me that I need to encourage her to keep drinking milk to stay healthy and grow well.

Loren

Finally back

Saturday, September 24th, 2005

I have really missed writing. I think I’ve finally taken care of all my computer issues, at least until tomorrow! I was able to check in on other’s blogs but not really able to comment or to write in my own blog at work. So, I’ve been working a lot (not too much) and spending time yelling at the kids about everything. I really need to work on that. Someday when I die (hopefully not until I’m a great, great grandma) all my kids will remember is that I yelled a lot.

I think I need to visit the library and pick up some Self Help books. Surely they have books to cover the following subjects:

How to not scream at your children and actually get them to listen.

How to come to terms with the end of a 12 year relationship.

How to find the energy and time to be a super achiever at work.

How to summon the courage to go back to college so I can do something more worthwhile that might even pay more.

How to get your kids to finish their homework, without a hassle.

How to whip up a quick, nutritious and inexpensive meal every night.

How to be a better person in general.

The ironic thing is that I can’t borrow any books from the library because I owe late fees and they’ve sent me to collections. This is my own fault. So I’m adding to the list of needed titles:

How to pay your bills on time so your library late fees won’t ruin your credit rating.

Hmm, maybe the best thing to do is to go to BORDERS and sit on the floor and read self help books. I love Borders. I love books. I love magazines. I love music. Maybe I’ll take the kids to the bookstore tomorrow.

Loren

Suki Saturday

Saturday, August 27th, 2005

Suki is our new kitten!!!

She is adorable, sweet and lovely!

Suki means “beloved” in Japanese (according to the World Wide Web) and I’m sure she will be very loved by our family. My daughter is handfeeding her right now, the poor kitty is going to be overstimulated. Just kidding! *to my dearest daughter who is reading over my shoulder*

I haven’t had a pet since I lived at home and I always had dogs. I’m not exactly sure what to do with a cat but we’ll learn as we go. The kids have always wanted a pet, I am sure they will be quite responsible and very good to little Suki in the years to come.

Loren

Tsunami Tuesday

Thursday, August 25th, 2005

I’m a few days late in writing about my exciting Tuesday. By chance, I woke up to two good morning wake up telephone calls from two good friends. I was lying in bed chatting, then got out of bed to officially wake up. And awake I was as I stepped into a puddle of water. My first thought was “What spilled?”, until I took another step, then another and realized the puddle encompassed my entire bedroom, bathroom, some of the hallway and the kids room.

Apparently my toilet had leaked/overflowed and poured water all night long as I slept peacefully. I spent the rest of the day cleaning up my miniature Pacific. Thankfully, after mopping up buckets and buckets without noticing any progress, I remembered there is such a thing as a “Wet Vac”. I went to Hawaii Rent All and $20.00 later I was on my way home with a superpower water suckerupper. This made the job go much faster. I had to wash tons of things and throw away a lot of things (thankfully not sentimental or too valuable).

I am sore from actually doing some manual labor instead of sitting at my desk all day but the flood is now in the past and my feet are dry!

Loren