Today I watch my ex, Reid, walk past my desk numerous times, and I watch his arms swing. And I think about his story.
We've worked in the same office for five years now. We dated for a good 2.5 of those years. But then we broke up, he found a fling up in Seattle, then came back to Hawaii and started dating Teri, who also works in this office.
I remember the many tears I shed over him, and how the sight of the two of them together at lunch sent daggers to my heart.
So today I hear he just broke up with Teri. I can't help but see him as an offender.
Part of me resents that he so frivolously goes into a relationship and receives companionship and attention, and sadly, love, but fails to give back of himself. Not of his time nor his money, but of his soul.
The more I think about him, the more I loathe his "cake-and-eat-it" approach. He does what he wants and uses the companionship of a woman for his comfort. And we like damn idiots stick around, only to encourage that.
Sometimes, I just feel like having a powwow with Teri and discuss what's happening. I don't know her very well, but I feel for her. She took several days of vacation to get over this break up, which makes me very sad.
I'm so glad God saved me from the hell of unrequited love.
Life is just too damn short to be walking the face of this earth questioning whether the person you're with really, truly gives a damn about you.
After reading your posts from last month, and then reading this, it seems to me that you are coming to the understanding that his behavior had less to do with you, and is more about his own flaws.
I realize you have to do what you feel comfortable with, but I hope that you will reach out to Teri. Who understands her pain more than you? Offer her comfort and friendship, and you may have a friend for life.
Posted by: kane on June 15, 2002 09:23 PM